Dedicated to my dear parents, grandparents and brother
Contents Reflections 1. What Is Real?
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2. Impermanence
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3. Manasa - The Mind
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4. The Present
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5. Symbiosis
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6. Privilege
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7. Regret
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8. Decisions
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9. Time
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10. Contradictions
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11. Dear Mind
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12. Misfit
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13. Suppression
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14. Dreams
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15. The Dilemma Of Life
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16. Time Warp
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17. Fate
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18. The War Within
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19. The Prisoner
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20. The Masked Men
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21. The Clown
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22. An Alphabetical Journey
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23. Anxiety
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Contents 24. Hesitant
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25. Love And Commitment
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26. The Mistress
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27. Betrayal
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28. Heartbreak
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29. Clinging
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30. Perspective
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31. Hope
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32. Reflection
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33. The Loser
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34. The Hitchhiker
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35. The Dead Man
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36. Realization
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37. Portal
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38. The Trigger
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39. True Love
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40. Karma
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41. The Embrace
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42. Awakening
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43. Moving On
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44. Let Go
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45. Fly High
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46. The Night
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47. Becoming
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Contents Conversations 48. The Being And I
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Thank You
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Acknowledgements
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About The Poet
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Reflections And emotions
1. What is real? Crystals crystals full of light A wash of water, a wave or tide A splash of colour, a ray of moist Awaken the unconscious conscious side Real unseen and seen unreal Unopened minds and hearts sealed A wave of thoughts drowning the sight… At a distance an answer I see A tall humble healing tree As I progressed near Turned true what I feared That real unseen and seen unreal The life I lived played like a montage To realize it’s nothing but a mirage… I asked the universe, what is for real??? It echoed, the real is unseen and the seen is unreal!
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2. Impermanence We were building a castle out of sand When the oceans came kissing the land The sea came along and wiped away Our castle and went back on its way… My eyes were about to drop a tear When he whispered, "Don’t worry I am here, We shall build many more castles that will stay’ And we built two more by the end of the day.”
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3. Manasa - The Mind Structure my life oh Manasa! My life is in your hand Put me not in dilemma And ask me to take a stand… Structure my life oh Manasa! Seeds of wisdom sow… Put me not in confusion Who am I? I do not know… Bring me to focus, Manasa! Let me open my eyes and see… Trap me not in senses And let me merge with thee!
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4. The Present An illusion Called the ‘present’ Created by time Is the only proof Of impermanence In existence sublime Since the past is permanent Future still to arrive With endless possibilities Of just being alive It is either future or past Where the mind dwells in Since the illusion of the ‘present’ Creates confusion within If exists, ‘the present’ my conquest shall be To live in the present Conquering time, space and thee!
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5. Symbiosis Constant dependence Is the cause of existence Can we ever be, without a need? A ‘Need’ is the reason For the creation of relations So, the need sows a seed… Seeds below turn into roots, right? The roots hold on to the soil tight The stem grows high above the ground ‘cause of the roots and soil, bound underground… Every entity needs the other Surviving because of one another The reason for life since the genesis Is none other than symbiosis