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Notion Press No.8, 3rd Cross Street CIT Colony, Mylapore Chennai, Tamil Nadu – 600004 First Published by Notion Press 2020 Copyright © Nisha Verma 2020 All Rights Reserved. ISBN 978-1-64919-565-4 This book has been published with all efforts taken to make the material error-free after the consent of the author. However, the author and the publisher do not assume and hereby disclaim any liability to any party for any loss, damage, or disruption caused by errors or omissions, whether such errors or omissions result from negligence, accident, or any other cause. While every effort has been made to avoid any mistake or omission, this publication is being sold on the condition and understanding that neither the author nor the publishers or printers would be liable in any manner to any person by reason of any mistake or omission in this publication or for any action taken or omitted to be taken or advice rendered or accepted on the basis of this work. For any defect in printing or binding the publishers will be liable only to replace the defective copy by another copy of this work then available.

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And the heart craves, Pleads me to turn back and look at him, Smile at him, maybe for one last time. Last.. but never the last and again. Maybe just one more time yet again! Forget the pain that comes along Forget that, he can never be mine. Forget what he will put me through Forget that ugly truth. And the heart craves, yet again

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The hands that once gave her warmth, Were a threat now. The voice that calmed her soul, Scared her to death now. The eyes in which she once found her home, Were now so alienated. The shoulders that used to put her to sleep, Now, pushed her away! She thought of him, but with fear The only one who ever showed her dreams, Now gave her tears. He left her behind and went ahead She kept him in her words forever safe.

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She survived the burn of sun. She didn’t let the water drown her. She stood nude... Embracing the warmth of the moon. Yes, she was a warrior who braved it thru. ...Only until oh thee, she met his eyes!

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She wished to sleep more For he was safe with her, in her dreams. She loved the wind, That embraced her, with his thoughts. She loved the moon, Who smiled at her, for he knew her desires. She loved her memories, They reminded... he had loved her once. She loved her every tear, Her cries reminded her, he was her world. She knew he now belonged to someone else, .... She wished to sleep more For he belonged only to her, in her dream!

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The whole lifetime will still be short, To hold his hands and look into his eyes To get drowned and to never to be found! ‘He’ a dream.. and in my dreams, Will forever be mine!

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There you went, leaving me behind You were strong, even with tears in your eyes. I held on to you, as my dream You always assured of coming back, to me. You smiled and laughed for me, despite being torn, You knew that would be my savior, while you were gone People say you won’t come back, ever Little do they know, you are in me, with me… forever! I might never see you again... and even hear you say. But my love, you stood high.. you were my pride. Your lips are sealed and hands are tied, I see you wrapped in a shell, with closed eyes. Oh thee, look at me one last time.. I don’t have tears, look at my smile. You’ll stay there for me.. always, I promise … to carry your shine.

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What else could it be Other than love! When he knocked at the doors of her thoughts In the heart of the night And left her with tears!

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She dreamed of having a lifetime with him, And life ensured, he stays forever in her dreams.

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She looked at the moon, He, who knew all her secrets. He smiled at her, with his warmth and said‘He who adorns an armour of dishonesty To protect his bones of lies, Ain’t any MAN! Smile on love..you are made by the blood of truth And skin of integrity You belong to the castle of my pride’ She looked at the moon, She knew he loved her the most. She wrapped herself in his warmth Cuddled with his love, she was ready to shine

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She was still stuck in a chapter While the book had already ended. That which had shred her heart And torn her thoughts apart!

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As the sun sets, The buds await a new dawn. The breeze waits to embrace the dew. I look up, at the sky and smile at the moon Thank him for staying there to show me light, while the sun bid an adieu. For, he embraced me during all my darkest hour. He gave me dreams, and not me lose hope! He heard my secrets and killed my fears. He who stood there, is special in many ways.. He knew I belonged to him, He moulded me in his care. I look up, at the sky and smile at the moon Thank him for staying there to show me light, while the sun bid an adieu. Nisha Verma

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She cried a deep cry, Her own tears left her dry, She stood there being burnt, Aftermath a lesson learnt.. Wrapped in the blanket of unknown silence, lies my love.. Sleeping with a threat.... Alone

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Mistakes.. The beautiful bitch! You’ve become a part of me, Not just my life. Why you so beautiful?

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Ref lections Love is a beautiful feeling. Very few have been blessed their entire life with it, while few others are still blessed with a glimpse of it. This book is a simple collection of all feelings and thoughts that we all run through, fight with and shy from! Dedicated to all who really have been there, those who can relate and understand. These words mean something to those who have loved and especially to those who have loved once and lost forever. Read the book on a nice rainy evening with a cup of tea in your hands. Enjoy the moment, moment of being ALIVE. Read this and turn the pages of your past, smile and move on. The past can’t be forgotten but, should never deter you from moving ahead. At times, it’s quintessential to know where you have reached, from where you were left abandoned. Read through and feel each word.

A single mother based out of Bengaluru, Nisha is a Model, Mrs. India Finalist, an Actor, a Passionate Enfield rider, India’s first Woman Certified Paranormal Investigator and now, a Writer. She always believed in her dreams and has worked really hard to achieve them single-handedly with a dogged determination. After being devastated by the loss of her loved partner early in her life, she has lived her life on her own terms, never compromising and keeping her head, heels and standards high. This book is dedicated to all those who can relate to her struggle in any which way. Price 160