Something I Never Told You… Sometimes what you want never deserves you

ISBN: 9781685090647

Hey!! Myself swapnil patil, I'm from Osmanabad district, Maharashtra and now am studing in 11th std, so I have written this book on my own life, it's generally difficult to suffer from this but I did and even have too; but the things are only about what I go through nor everyone will. here's some part of my life which even becomes emotional, sometimes it seems like I'm a psycho but now I used to be an open book untill I burned too many times as if setting part of me to flames could change where my story begans and if writing the old version of me will keep people from finding the truth so then I kept my power and let myself consigned to fire until I became it.

I’d like to share a short story about myself. I’d like to do this, to show people that life will always throw curveballs but what truly matters is you fight through it! Things will get better sooner or later. For the children out there that don’t think they aren’t worth it, because of bullies or family issues, you ARE worth it! Every life matters, and it might not seem like it but you are destined for something great! I had a rough life and have thought multiple times that it would never get better. As I get older, I realize that the struggle I go through makes me who I am. I am a stronger person because of what I went through and still go through. I will only get stronger from the struggles and curveballs, and even though sometimes I feel like giving up I remember I am worth it! So, here is a short story about what I’ve gone through as a child and what I go through now as an adult. Just remember, everyone is destined to be something great, it is up to you to make sure you get there!

First, let me introduce myself; My name is Swapnil and I am 17 years old boy who go through this kind of annoying life. I have attempted, with no success at time, to not let them get to me. Unfortunately sometimes it's not easy to ignore. I had a rough childhood, along with adulthood. I'd like to share some of my life with you people, It will helps you to understand what mistakes I have did to bring myself down but also, how I always pick myself up!

I was born on November 23rd 2004 ,in a middle class family...my father was a private contractor and my mother is house wife. My father dedicated his whole life in struggle for keeping us safe and very very happy. My father not have that much better source of income but he don't let that this situation comes to me therefore he always

encouraged me to study hard and make him proud! He always want me to fly high in the sky and never let me down in my life. My Mom and Dad were married by choice of their family, you can say it arrange marriage but; it's not….the love bond they have of each other was unbreakable therefore the family also get convince about their love but it was not that easy. Their relatives were the barrier of their relationship but they stood strong holding hands together in the storm. This was that unbreakable bond I have ever seen. It’s amazing how we grow from careless kids to responsible teens. What happens in the course that makes us responsible now? It’s the seeds that we sow in the beginning which grows and becomes a huge tree. As I sit here, silently thinking about my growth, enduring the changes, I wonder over some questions which don’t have an answer but it’s because of such unanswerable situations that life has become a roller coaster ride. As a kid, I used to read a lot of story books. In one particular book, I read a story of

a bird. From then on, that has become an integral part of my life. It described a male bird which takes a lot of pain to build a nest and the female bird takes shelter in it and nourishes the baby. When the bird learns to fly, the whole family flies off to a different place leaving behind the beautiful nest for other birds to grow their family in it. It made me wonder. How could they so easily sacrifice their house built with so much effort? But it's a life that continues; one's have to sacrifice and one's got it without any struggle. The day When I used to hold my pappa’s hand and go for a walk, I used to observe the surroundings. It always made me curious to know the things that the book had taught me. I used to ask innumerable questions to my dad but he never grew tired of answering them, that's what we called them our parents….The memories of childhood have special significance in one’s life and are cherished by almost everyone. As one grows up, one longs more and more for his childhood, the best period of one’s life. A child

has no work worries or anxieties. He is free from the stress and unpleasantness of adult life. His motto of life remains “eat, drink and be merry.” The charm of childhood cannot be forgotten. These memories leave an everlasting impression on one’s life. Same is the case with me. When I recollect the days of my childhood, I feel highly delighted; it was a pleasant period that I spent in high spirits. During my childhood, I was carefree and had no worries at all. I used to wander like a deer in the open fields, enjoying the natural beauty of the pastures. The memories of my childhood days are still fresh in my mind. Although I do wish that those days, full of pleasure, come back, I know that it is a thing of the past. Time flies on wings. I have to move on. It is this beautiful period that has often been eulogised by poets and writers. Recollecting past is to plunge ourselves in a state of melancholy. Wordsworth, the immortal poet of England and a great worshipper of nature, often describes his childhood days in his poems.

Childhood, according to him, is full of pleasures, thrill and entertainment. As I grow older, I look back with great nostalgia to my childhood days filled with fun and frolic. I know they will never come back and hence I shall cherish those memories till my last day. Now I am ready to fly to the school, Our lives are full of new events which we experience on different days. Similarly, going to school for the first time is also memorable. How can one forget their first day, it is only natural to remember the day, no matter good or bad. My first day at school was a completely new experience for me. It is because the atmosphere completely changes for any child. You always stay in the comfort and safety of your own home. However, your first day at school opens door to unknown experiences and opportunities. Much like any other child, I was also scared on my first day. I remember clearly not letting go of my mother’s hand, hesitant to go in the classroom.

On my first day, I got up excited and put on my uniform for the first time. The feeling that I got was so memorable, I can't forget it forever. As it was my first day, both my parents went to drop me off. I remember seeing the classroom full of little children. Some crying while the others playing with others. I looked at my mother and gave her the look that I didn’t want them to leave. They had to go so I kept crying but eventually, my teacher consoled me. Once I settled in the class, I talked with the other kids and started playing with them. The colourful walls of the classroom fascinated me a lot. We got many toys to play with so all the other kids also got distracted and they stopped crying. This was the first beginning of my life...as I'm getting adult from my childhood I started loving my school it was great feeling I have ever had. School life is one of the most important phases in the life of a man. It is the

period during which one learns the basic principles of behaviour, speech, and etiquette. School life, in fact, is a period of learning and training in all the aspects of the personality of a man. One gets training for maintaining physical fitness, increasing one’s mental powers, learning the proper code of behaviour and understanding the basic concepts of life. School life is a period for the formation of character, mind, and body on sound lines. But there are some students who hold a different view regarding school life. To them, the warnings of the teachers, the strict attitude of the parents, the compulsions for completing homework and the regular attendance in schools are some of the unhappy aspects of this period. They are tension free in their schools and wish to be like the birds that fly free. The students do not like the strict discipline that has to be followed while studying in a school. They wait impatiently for school days to be over. I loved my school days. They are the most joyful and fulfilled with

many mysteries to solve and many fights to resolve. As I get bigger to my teenage I started changing myself. My looks, behaviour, attitude I think this was the change all teenager's do in their life but was that positive or negative change?.. you will have to answer it but do all thinks same. There's time in everyone's life where they don't remind about their career, their life, was that right? you only have to decide it but decide it at the end of this book. Every teenage wants a better look, handsome personality, a beautiful girlfriend in their life but some wants for fun and other's for passing their boring day.

Ok! Now I am a teenager and as every teenage falls, my idiot soul also falls in love with a girl, I starting loving her more than myself. Here's the love begins, Love is the most significant thing in human’s life. Each science and every single literature masterwork will tell you about it. Humans are also social animals. We lived for centuries with this way of life, we were depended on one another to tell us how our clothes fit us, how our body is whether healthy or emaciated. All these we get the honest opinions of those who love us, those who care for us and makes our happiness paramount. Love is something that every person needs and almost every person falls in love to

someone or something. Almost every person experiences the first love and remembers it for rest of his or her life. I can define the first love as when one person has extreme feelings for another person for the first time. First love is not something that we can forget. First love is one of the best experiences I ever had. My first love is my crush. There's one interesting thing that now it has just becomes a memory...I know it's very embarrassing thing that had happened but you all know relationship is all about trust, love, pleasure, joy and it has to came from both side; not only one person stands for it.! In everyone's life there are different experiences; one of them is the first love. My first love was dazzling yet aching. Every time I go back to those memories, my eyes water and I feel like I could have done so much better. My story began 2 yrs ago. when I was just fifteen. I was inexperienced and naive; I thought that there was no heart break in this world. Even I don't know why should I fall for only that girl?...this was the big

question but I even don't have any answer. not at that time and even now also. I think it's a imaginary bond between us; but the big question is, was this from only my side? does she even deserves me or not? It was month of march, the most happiest day for me. The day I got her in my life; I'm so happy for this even my friends too happy in my happiness but was that real or fake?…there's the time in everyone's life where we find who was the real one's and the fake one's When I talk about my friends I becomes like I'm drowned in darkness where no one can listen me no one will come for me. The story will tells you all the reveals and the secrets of my life; from what I go through. So, here I start. As I told you all I was too much happy. This was my moment. She was my dream girl I thought I had accomplished all of her requirements. I believed I was the only guy she had eyes for. Love is a dangerous thing, especially when you've given your all to a person who doesn't give there all upto you.