Ch a o s On l y
SHUBHRA PODDAR
Chaos Only
SHUBHRA PODDAR
First published by Writer’s Pocket in 2022 email:
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To Maa and Baba, very special parents to an ordinary child but still believes their child is special
I am not a sad woman, I am a woman with chaos I am a work in progress I am strong enough To fight my Demons.
CONTENTS 1. 2. 3. 4. 5. 6. 7. 8. 9. 10. 11. 12. 13. 14. 15. 16. 17. 18. 19. 20. 21. 22. 23. 24. 25. 26. 27. 28. 29. 30. 31. 32. 33.
Fire Countries Apocalypse Blue Ocean Mother of Money Magic Paradise Violin Apology A gift that I never gave her The River Hold on No human Loneliness It is better to smile Because it’s hard The change game Mirror Broken Heart Past Pain Yet again Reality People who change We the strange people Memories Running away Can you make it okay? What is it? The Essence of your voice Him Distance
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Words oh Words, why are you not enough? A little more Something Soul Towards you Until I met you The Dream Losing you The world where we belong! You Parallel Universe A maybe Let you go For how long Truth Home Prayers and Hope Yogi Blood relations 11 Years If I tell you My go-to person What a man can also be ADHD Bliss Gratitude Silence Life goes on Hope Night Universe
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I cannot express enough thanks to Writer's Pocket for choosing this Book. It wouldn't be possible without their Team. I would like to acknowledge and give my warmest thanks to my parents for believing in me. To Dada, my mentor for life, my best friend, and my guide. I am lucky enough to be surrounded by people who are my pillars of Strength. You know who you are. My friends, my chosen family, Thank You for pushing me hard when I almost gave up. And last but not the least, to the readers, Thank You for choosing this book. I know poetry is supposed to be complex, but for each one of you, I believe it should speak for itself. I might have written all the extra-ordinary and uniquity. But I chose to write about what we all go through at some point in our respective lives. This book is for you all.
It is easy to be evil Easier to destruct Dishonesty is easy and so is hate What’s harder is to choose and stay on the right path
Chaos only
1. Fire They asked me to write about Fire, Is it about the one that demolishes houses? Or the one that breaks Homes? Is it about the one that helps to cook? Or the one that creates devils In the name of appetite? Is it about the one that makes chemicals? Or the one that raises those comets in the sky? Is it about the one that killed an entire habitat? Or the one that scribbled into a suicide note? Is it about the one that comes in flames? Or the one that desires the world to change? Is it about the one that leads to purification? Or the one that wants to hold a gun against the innocent? Is it about the one that gives you power; Or the one that makes helpless? Is it about the Fire that is Villain? Which leads to destruction? Or a hero; that forms within To start a revolution? 1
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Do you everfeell i ke i t’ s been too l ong hol di ng thi ngs up? Do you find i thard si l enci ng the voi ces i n yourhead,ti red offighti ng the dem ons wi thi n,chasi ng the dream whi ch m ay nevercom e true? Do you everfeell i ke al lyou wantto be i s heard? Do you fearyoursel fputti ng up nk you m ay outthere because you thi fai l ? Do you everfeell i ke you are so cl ose to gi vi ng up? Are you ready to l et go ofthatone dream thatkeptyou al i ve foryears? Do you everseek an escape? Do you feelconfused taki ng up the path you know nothi ng about? Do you feeland thi nk aboutchaos m ore than you shoul d? W hati fthere i s a way to end al lofthi s? W hati fthere i s a way to freedom .W hat i fthere i s Hope? A hope,thatcarves way outofyourchaos. W hati fi ti s notas hard as i tm ay seem ? W hati fItel lyou… Al lyou need i s to Bel i eve!