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REVIEWS “The best love story I have ever read… Beautiful, different, sweet and a bit dark side…all in interesting manner. It has a suspense element to it which is so shocking that it will shock your soul… It inspires you to drench yourself deep into love….” Fauzia Farooquee, (Daughter of Paigam Afaqui: An Author of MAKAAN) “The Sweetest, touching, affable, attractive, unforgettable and ineradicable story” I have read. I couldn’t stop my tears.” Abehyender Singh, (Professor IP University) “The best, most heartbreaking book that has touched me like none other. The author has delivered an emotionally charged and uniquely beautiful MASTERPIECE that will capture your heart and soul.” Meera, (M.A honors student) “Have trust in love?... Just read it, and you’re never going to give a chance to your love to be alone for a single minute. I’ll not at all be surprised if Kisnaa becomes a bestselling author in coming days. As he obviously deserves that for this book!” Manisha Dhoundiyal, (M.A honors student)

Amazon Reviews “Should I Hate or Love” is one of the best novels based on love story I read. I treat this novel as a bench mark novel. ……….. “Have you ever considered a story.. Which somehow wrap your mind, twist your thoughts and make you feel what you actually shouldn’t feel? Going through Kisnaa’s ‘’should I hate or love’’ you will feel the same. A heart wrenching, a heartwarming, and somewhere in between the most honest love you can ever feel while reading this masterpiece of a book.” ……….. Some love stories never die. They remain for generations yet to come to read them again. This is one such story.... A beautiful story. ……….. I’m not actually fond of reading novels but should I hate or love has left me with some kind of hangover... It left me with tears, the poetry used clearly showed the deep love and pain of Aayan... Looking forward for another work from Kisnaa... ……….. I felt every emotion Aayan felt, his smile made me smile, his tears made me cried and when he is broken, a part of me shattered with him. He (The Author) has portrayed love so well that I realised I just understood the real definition of love ……….. I completed the book in one sitting. While reading tears were not staying in my eyes and my heart was feeling

the pain of the story.. I smiled, cried and felt each and every emotion described in the book... Thanks to the author for sharing this story.. Wonderful.. ……….. The love of Aayan for Siya is just incredible and one will have to read the book to know about it. ……….. A perfect blend of emotions, feelings and love... And above all amazing poems in between to describe each and every aspect of love... ……….. I like the way by which writer expresses each and everything it build curiosity in reader’s mind. ……….. Finally....the best love story comes in the market. *******

(A TRUE LOVE STORY)

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ISBN 978-93-52017-28-7 Copyright © KISNAA, 2016 First published in India 2016 by Frog Books An imprint of Leadstart Publishing Pvt Ltd 1 Level, Trade Centre Bandra Kurla Complex Bandra (East) Mumbai 400 051 India Telephone: +91-22-40700804 Fax: +91-22-40700800 Email: [email protected] www.leadstartcorp.com / www.frogbooks.net Sales Office: Unit No.25/26, Building No.A/1, Near Wadala RTO, Wadala (East), Mumbai – 400037 India Phone: +91 22 24046887 US Office: Axis Corp, 7845 E Oakbrook Circle Madison, WI 53717 USA All rights reserved. No part of this publication may be reproduced, stored in or introduced into a retrieval system, or transmitted, in any form, or by any means (electronic, mechanical, photocopying, recording or otherwise) without the prior written permission of the publisher. Any person who does any unauthorised act in relation to this publication may be liable to criminal prosecution and civil claims for damages. Disclaimer: The Views expressed in this book are those of the Author and do not pertain to be held by the Publisher. Editor: Ms Sushmita Gupta Cover: Nishant Layouts: Chandravadan R. Shiroorkar Typeset in Palatino Linotype Printed at Repro Knowledgecast Limited, Thane

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DEDICATED TO MY LOVELY BRO….

MANISH

MISS YOU………… IN EVERY MOMENT OF MY LIFE 02 – AUG - 2012

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ACKNOWLEDGEMENTS Since, I was a kid, I always dreamt of becoming an author. Not just an author but someone who can pen down his heart and today at this point in my life, it’s like a dream come true for me. For that I need to truly thank my Parents, something I don’t think I have appropriately done to date. Dad, thank you, for being so strict with your rules that I missed out on some moments that could have led me to the wrong path. Thank you for getting mad at me when my report card didn’t have high enough grades. For making me realize that I can put more time into my work and improve my performance as a result. Mom, thank you for making me realize that I am worth everything in this world. That I must live like a king and that I should never settle for less than what I deserve. I am full of gratitude to the people who have poured out their love and affection to me throughout my life. Also to those who always hated and cheated on me, perhaps they don’t know that how immensely they have helped me indirectly. I am deeply indebted to my sister and mentor Ms Reena Nandal, for her valuable guidance,  consistent encouragement and lifelong motivation and support. Reena di, thank you for showing me true love in the rarest form, what it feels like, and how it can extend beyond life’s obstacles and challenges. I am blessed to have a pure and true soul around me, my best friend, Ms Preeti Mann. Mann, thank you for giving me a shoulder to cry when that girl broke my heart, and letting me know that my 11

world wasn’t crashing down around me, as much as I believed it was, at that time. I am grateful to my younger sister, Ms Kanika Panwar, for her honest feedback and unstinting support, as well as constructive suggestions throughout the composition of this piece. Kanika, thank you for your firm faith in me, and writing your 1st ever poem just for me, to make me realize how much I mean to you, it feels truly good to have a sweet little sister like you. I am grateful to my Radha (Ms Annu Agnihotri) who took me to Iskcon Temple nearly 4 or 5 years ago and after that my whole life changed. I wish to express my sincere gratitude to my friends, Ms Harpreet Kaur for helping me in get started with this project, and Ms Sheetal Ahuja for her endless efforts and support throughout the composition of this piece. I would like to thank my freelance editor, Ms Sriraka Mazumder, who helped me refine the language of the book. Last but not least, I would also like to thank the ‘Leadstart Publications’ team to help me publish the book. While every attempt has been made to make this book error free, there may remain some areas requiring further development. I would appreciate suggestions from the readers, which would help me make the necessary improvements in future. Any suggestions or improvement may be sent to me at [email protected]. You may also follow me at: Twitter: ‘kisnaa07’ or Facebook page: ‘Kisnaa” (@kisnaa07) Blog website: kisnaablog.wordpress.com KISNAA 12

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POETRY YEARS BACK, I WAS ALONE... JUST ME AND MA SOUL... A HEART WAS THERE, WAITING FOR SOMEONE... EYES WERE THERE, DREAMING OF SOMEONE... THEN YOU CAME IN MA LIFE, AS AN ANGEL TO ME... AND THREW A SMILE, OBVIOUSLY FOR ME... MA HEART STARTED BEATING FOR YOU, I STARTED LIVING FOR YOU, BUT THEN... YOU LEFT... YEARS AFTER, I AM ALONE AGAIN... JUST ME, MA SOUL AND THIS RAIN... IT WAS RAINING, WHEN I HELD YOUR HAND... AND IT’S RAINING TOO, WHEN YOU LEFT MA HAND... YOU SAID YOU LOVE ME, THEN WHY YOU LEFT... FOR ME YOU’RE THE ONLY ONE, WHOM I CAN’T FORGET... NOW, I’VE TO LIVE ALONE, AS I WAS BORN ALONE...

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SOMETIMES I’LL LOVE YOU, SOMETIMES I’LL HATE YOU, AS MA HEART DOESN’T KNOW, SHOULD I HATE YOU... OR LOVE YOU...

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BHAI…… TERE LIYE (For you)…….. JAHAN SE AAYA THA WOH, WAPAS WAHIN LOUT GAYA (Where he came from he went back there)… DIL ME KUCH YAADEIN, AUR AANKHON ME NAMI CHHOD GAYA (He left few memories in heart and few drops in the eyes)… JISKI BATEIN SUN KAR MAIN HAR DAFA MUSKURA DETA THA (Whose words always made me smile), AAJ USSI KI AAVAJ SUNNE KO DIL RO RAHA HAI (Today I yearn to hear those very words)… JISKE SAATH HONE PAR MAIN SARA DARD BHULA DETA THA (Whose company always made me forget all my pain), AAJ USSI KE KARAN DIL ME BADA DARD HO RAHA HAI (Today because of him there is lot of pain in my heart)… MUJHE AKSAR KAHTA THA WOH “TU MERI AANKHON KA TAARA HAI” (He would often tell me that I am his shining star) AAJ WOH HI EK TARA BAN AASMAN ME KHO GAYA (Today he has only become a star and got lost in the huge sky)… JAHAN SE AAYA THA WOH, WAPAS WAHIN LOUT GAYA (Where he came from he went back there)… MERA BHAI KAHIN DUR LOUT GAYA (My brother went far away)…

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