IN QUEST OF A story of living, imagery from bursts of color and feelings and hallucinations of my imagination.

MOUNIKA R

NOTION PRESS

NOTION PRESS India. Singapore. Malaysia.

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Dedicated to, Universe

Contents A story of living, imagery from bursts of color and feelings and hallucinations of my imagination. ................................................ i Har Har Mahadev ...................................................................... xiii Why do i write? .......................................................................... xv Poet’s Note, .............................................................................. xvii 1. A Scared Temple ...................................................................... 1 2. Appearance.............................................................................. 3 3.Artist ......................................................................................... 5 4. Balance .................................................................................... 7 5. Becoming ............................................................................... 10 ................................................................................................... 10 6. Blue Sea ................................................................................. 12 7. Body and Soul ........................................................................ 14 ............................................................................................... 14 8. Books ..................................................................................... 16 9. Bookworm ............................................................................. 18 10. Chasing ................................................................................ 20 ................................................................................................... 20 11. Choice .................................................................................. 22 ................................................................................................... 22

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12. Datura .................................................................................. 24 ................................................................................................... 24 13. Day Dreaming ...................................................................... 26 14. Dear Universe ...................................................................... 28 15. Defaince ............................................................................... 30 16. Don't .................................................................................... 32 ................................................................................................... 32 17. Don't fall in love with a writer ............................................. 34 18. Earthsong ............................................................................. 36 ................................................................................................... 36 19. Falling In love ....................................................................... 39 ................................................................................................... 39 20. Faraway ............................................................................... 41 ................................................................................................... 41 21. Firefly ................................................................................... 43 ................................................................................................... 43 22. Firefly ................................................................................... 45 23. Firm...................................................................................... 47 ................................................................................................... 47 24. Freedom .............................................................................. 49 ................................................................................................... 49 25. Follow the mind ................................................................... 51 ................................................................................................... 51 26. Future man .......................................................................... 53 vi

27. Have you? ............................................................................ 55 ................................................................................................... 55 28. Human ................................................................................. 57 ................................................................................................... 57 29. Humans ................................................................................ 59 ................................................................................................... 59 30. I Am...................................................................................... 61 ................................................................................................... 61 31. Identity ................................................................................ 63 ................................................................................................... 63 32. If's and Maybe's ................................................................... 65 33. Illusions ................................................................................ 67 34. Ink Stains.............................................................................. 69 ................................................................................................... 69 35. Ink and Stars ........................................................................ 71 36. Into the wild......................................................................... 73 ................................................................................................... 73 37. Intimacy ............................................................................... 75 ................................................................................................... 75 38. Kaledoscopic Journey .......................................................... 77 ................................................................................................... 77 39. Lady...................................................................................... 79 ................................................................................................... 79 40. Late night thoughts.............................................................. 81

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................................................................................................... 81 41. Let her fly ............................................................................. 83 ................................................................................................... 83 42. Listen ................................................................................... 85 ................................................................................................... 85 43. Look up ................................................................................ 87 ................................................................................................... 87 44. Lost In you ........................................................................... 89 45. Magic ................................................................................... 91 ................................................................................................... 91 46. Me and Firefly...................................................................... 93 ................................................................................................... 93 47. Meet me there..................................................................... 95 ................................................................................................... 95 48. Midnight Scribbles ............................................................... 97 ................................................................................................... 97 49. Mother Nature .................................................................... 99 50. Music ................................................................................. 101 ................................................................................................. 101 51. Mystery .............................................................................. 103 ................................................................................................. 103 52. Never- ending .................................................................... 105 ................................................................................................. 105 53. Not In the crowd................................................................ 107 viii

................................................................................................. 107 54. Not machines ..................................................................... 109 ................................................................................................. 109 55. Oh Autumn ........................................................................ 111 ................................................................................................. 111 56. Only Now ........................................................................... 113 ................................................................................................. 113 57. Orchid ................................................................................ 115 ................................................................................................. 115 58. Orchid ................................................................................ 117 ................................................................................................. 117 59. Orchid ................................................................................ 119 ................................................................................................. 119 60. Peace ................................................................................. 121 ................................................................................................. 121 61. Perfect Time ...................................................................... 123 ................................................................................................. 123 62. Raised by books ................................................................. 125 ................................................................................................. 125 63. Rear- view .......................................................................... 127 ................................................................................................. 127 64. Rule Breaker ...................................................................... 129 ................................................................................................. 129 65. Runaway ............................................................................ 131

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................................................................................................. 131 66. Sapiosexual ........................................................................ 133 ................................................................................................. 133 67. Selenophile ........................................................................ 135 ................................................................................................. 135 68. Seek ................................................................................... 137 ................................................................................................. 137 69. Serendipity......................................................................... 139 ................................................................................................. 139 70. She ..................................................................................... 141 71. Silent Battles ...................................................................... 143 ................................................................................................. 143 72. Soul .................................................................................... 146 ................................................................................................. 146 73. Stardust ............................................................................. 148 ................................................................................................. 148 74. Stargate ............................................................................. 150 ................................................................................................. 150 75. Strict Teacher..................................................................... 152 ................................................................................................. 152 76. Sunsets............................................................................... 154 ................................................................................................. 154 77. Sun and Stars ..................................................................... 156 ................................................................................................. 156 x

78. The Odyssey ....................................................................... 158 ................................................................................................. 158 79. Those days ......................................................................... 160 ................................................................................................. 160 80. Timeless love ..................................................................... 162 ................................................................................................. 162 81. Too much ........................................................................... 164 ................................................................................................. 164 82. Tommorrow ....................................................................... 166 ................................................................................................. 166 83. Unicorn .............................................................................. 168 ................................................................................................. 168 84. Upside down ...................................................................... 170 ................................................................................................. 170 85. Vow .................................................................................... 172 ................................................................................................. 172 86. Wait ................................................................................... 174 ................................................................................................. 174 87. War Letters ........................................................................ 176 ................................................................................................. 176 88. We...................................................................................... 179 ................................................................................................. 179 89. Weapon I use ..................................................................... 182 ................................................................................................. 182

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90. We deserve ........................................................................ 184 ................................................................................................. 184 91. What a world? ................................................................... 186 ................................................................................................. 186 92. What's her fault? ............................................................... 188 93. Wild flower ........................................................................ 190 ................................................................................................. 190 94. Wild flower ........................................................................ 192 ................................................................................................. 192 95. Wild heart .......................................................................... 195 ................................................................................................. 195 96. Wild women ...................................................................... 197 ................................................................................................. 197 97. Worth It ............................................................................. 199 ................................................................................................. 199 98. Writing ............................................................................... 201 ................................................................................................. 201 99. Yet so many ....................................................................... 203 ................................................................................................. 203 100. You ................................................................................... 205 ................................................................................................. 205 Epilogue ................................................................................... 207

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Har Har Mahadev

Why do i write? Because, the right people will always be willing to read