self the edit volume 1 @maya.kwok 1/18/2023

03. Start Here 05. New Years...Alone! 09. 2023 Goals 12. Life in Color 15. Taking it Slow 19. NYE Tarot Card Reading 21. You Are the Space You Create 25. The Midnight Library 1 jan

@maya.kwok 2 nuary Quote of the month: “It’s a process!”

Who Am I? I have been giving this a lot of thought lately. Actually, all of 2022 I have been giving this thought. A question we are never truly done answering as we are naturally ever-changing. This used to be (at times still is) difficult for me to remember; that as human beings, we are meant to change. We are meant to evolve with each season of our lives. To stay the same exact person from youth to adulthood and beyond is not only boring but, more importantly, limiting. This is all to say, that I do not know who I am. All I know is that I am tired of the way I always introduce myself, the things I always say I am interested in. Lately, I have been challenging myself to think deeply about whether or not these things that roll off my tongue are my core or are they things that I have convinced need to stay the same to be me? In other words, are these things truly who I am or who I have told myself I need to maintain? I do not want to limit myself through confining characteristics. I want to allow myself room to grow, change, evolve. I invite you to figure out through experience, who I am. I rather not tell you, I rather not chart it out for myself. I would rather live it and let myself be whoever I am in each moment, with each interaction. Hopefully, along the way, you can relate and unravel yourself too! 3 @maya.kwok start h

What is This? As I focus on figuring out what I want to do (short-term and long-term) I want to document just that, the journey, in a way that I enjoy. This mini publication is sort of a way to fill time, express myself, be creative, and keep up skills all in one. It is simply something I wanted to create out of pure joy, out of the want to fulfill the quintessential movie lens life I’ve had playing in my head since I was a child (main characters are always in publishing lol). In this period of my life, I am drawn to create as a way of navigating this “figuring it out” section of life (“in limbo” if you will). If you are also post-grad or if you are switching jobs, moving, starting over, growing up, or in any situation where you find yourself looking inward to find your best next step, this culmination of pieces is for you! I aim to cover topics of general lifestyle, books and media, beauty and fashion, movement and activities, and art and design. Every piece within each section will relate to finding yourself, learning about yourself, improving, and empowering yourself as I learn these lessons in my own life (hence self edit). They will not be perfect, this is essentially an extension of a hobby (ie don’t expect too much). I do not expect you to read everything at all, it is something that exists just to exist. Expect monthly releases and expect growth! Just as much as we will grow and change with each month, so will this! @maya.kwok 4 here

lif New Year’s...Alone! Ahh, New Year’s. My family never did anything big for the holiday. Most years we would go to neighbors’ or friends’ parties, coming home before the ball dropped, and missing it. Or we would skip the parties in an effort to finally catch it only to fight heavy eyes in the final seconds of the year. The ball drops and life goes on. Essentially, New Year’s has never been that special or significant. As I got older, New Year’s became more of a reflection point rather than a holiday. It was a good time to notice areas of change learned from the past year and set goals for myself. Along the way, I met some incredible friends to share these goals with to be accountability buddies! (So. Cute. We love great friends!!). Our traditional plans for goal-setting and manifesting fell through due to COVID (seriously buddy…no one invited you). All my roommates were gone, home for the holidays and my family already left the city (to miss the ball drop). It was looking like New Year’s was going to be just me. Just me! While it was unfortunate that plans fell through, I actually found myself excited. I have leaned into alone time this past year as it is nice to be liberated from the pressure I put on myself to live up to a certain standard. With a full day to myself, I wanted to do simple activities that would clear my mind to go into the new year with a sense of calm my 2022 lacked. I started with my normal morning routine of breakfast, stretching, and an hour of “chilling” (reading/ watching YouTube videos, lately TEDTalks lol). Throughout this routine, I usually listen to Folklore and Evermore back to back by Taylor Swift which is therapy in itself, but I decided to change it up. I listened to a meditation podcast, which is VERY unlike me. For one, I can’t get into podcasts (or audiobooks, nothing against them but I can never pay close enough 5 @maya.kwok

festyle attention) let alone meditation (did I mention I have trouble sitting still? I am sure you are surmising that…more on this later). Then I cleaned, which I was most looking forward to. Cleaning in the morning is one of my favorite things. I like the slow movement while the sun is shining. Other things I was looking forward to during the day were painting my nails, watching a movie, journaling, going for a long walk, drafting up my goals (which is really arts and crafts), and drawing tarot cards in my cozy room with ambient lighting (ambient lighting = twinkle lights and candles…VERY important). It turned out to be a rainy day, which was even better for the laid-back vibe. In the evening I finally sat down to draft up my goals and I wanted to be sure I was intentional. In the past I have made goals under three main categories; self (areas where I want to break bad habits and/or improve overall self), relationships (friends, family, dating, etc.), and career (things I want to achieve that relate to my career). If I am adamant, only one or two of the goals under each category see their way to achievement by the end of the year (and usually the last few months…ahh the unavoidable procrastination). Looking at my 2022 goals, I knew I wanted to hone in on one section; self. If there is one thing 2022 (and my college/academic career) has taught me, it is that when I set my mind on something I will not stop until I obtain it. I will drive myself past my breaking point to honor my word, follow through, and achieve (not the healthiest habit). Someone wise @maya.kwok 6

once told me that growing up/adulting is about learning when to apply your energy, where, and how much. HUUUGEEE. Those wise words fell into my lap at the beginning of December and it was not until after the holidays (procrastination or as I like to call it “time to sink in”) to realize I wanted to take working on myself seriously. I was on the train home (NJ Transit has proved to me the most thought-provoking atmospheres) when I had an epiphany while jour - naling. In all caps I wrote, “I AM TIRED”. Underneath it, I wrote every - thing I am tired of that I keep doing. The last line sums it all up best: “of my old narrative”. I am tired of living my life in a way that I think is expect - ed of me (i.e. being bogged down by “I should” versus “I want”). I am tired of saying what I think others want to hear, of pleasing others at my cost. I want to be more honest with myself, which has been a goal of mine since 2020 (change…it’s a process!). The difference this year is I will put in the work. See goals, big and small, on page 9. I ended the night in my cozy room (my favorite place on earth right now). Candles lit, twinkle lights on, and Taylor Swift’s “Midnights” play - ing softly in the background was the perfect ambiance for a tarot card reading (see pages 19-20 for my NYE tarot card reading). I was out by 10:30! I missed the ball drop, and missed Miley’s NYE party (love you, Miley), but had the best day all by myself! I can’t think of a better way to kick off a year focused on self-im - provement than being alone. I hope you enjoyed your New Year’s cele - bration and found a power within yourself you want to carry into this next chapter! Here’s to 2023! 7 @maya.kwok

8 The film camera my dad gifted me this holiday season! It was his from high school and is easily my most prozed posession at the moment. It even has his old strap!

202 Go The Big 1. Live My Worth: believing I have worth and speaking that worth with confidence. Not letting myself get walked over or not advocating for myself in fear of not being pleasing. 2. Honor My Body & Mind: rather than focusing on how these things limit me, I want to focus more on the amazing things they do for me. 3. Slow Down & Enjoy Little Moments: appreciate stillness, do things at my own pace, and challenge myself to find calm in situations that typically make me hyper-active/anxious/stressed. 4. Make New Connections & Foster Old: with new connections, I want to challenge myself to be truly me and change my old narrative or people-pleasing habits. With old, asserting my thoughts more (again, less people-pleasing). 5. Host More: have more fun without limiting myself. Instead of talking myself out of things I want to do because of things I don’t have or have not done yet, just do them! (For hosting, an example of a limit I place for myself is not having throw pillows on the couch or not having cute dishes lol). 6. Forgive Myself: overall be kinder to me, love myself and let the bad days/mundane days have as much weight as the good days. Every day is just a day. Every day has the potential to be something great (guess the movie quote…it’s from The Perfect Man) as much as it has the potential to be bad or mundane. We can turn each day into a good or great one if we so choose! This is what I want to remember and live fully. It’s a process! 9 @maya.kwok

23 oals The Small 1. Reading: I used to not read for leisure but started in 2020 and found I enjoy it a lot! I also do not love to be attached to my phone so a book is an easy replacement. Also goes hand in hand with slowing down. 2. Spend More Time Outdoors & Travel: long walks, mini trips, bike rides, etc. It has always been a struggle for me to stay indoors, but being outside/outdoor activities has always been a positive source of energy and keeps my mind clear. So more of this for a peaceful mind! And travel is another thing I usually limit myself on; finding reasons why I shouldn’t spend money or take time off. We are young. Do it - little weekend trips or day trips that are train rides away are affordable, attainable options). 3. Take More Photos: For Christmas, my dad gifted me his old Nikon film camera from when he was in high school (so cute, I love passed-down things). I want to learn how to use it, take more photos, and work on this skill. I generally take photos of architecture but want to expand this and do more to learn naturally! No pressure, hobby level. 4. Practice Digital Art Skills: I minored in Digital Art & Design and those were some of my most favorite courses. I learned how to make (low-level) animations, books, zines (hello this), and more. I love typography and layout, I am an amateur but want to grow this as I want to be in a more creative field career-wise. So things like this mini-publication are a way for me to continue to use what I have learned. 5. Create More: whether that is baking more, cooking more, drawing more, singing more, playing the guitar more, writing more, you name it. I want to explore more of my creative side to find my style and know myself better. What do I gravitate towards, what types of things do I tend to create? What Colors do I tend to use? Also, it will just make me happy :) @maya.kwok 10

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@maya.kwok 12 y & shion Life in Color This past summer I was fortunate to do a lot of travel. Some with work, some for pleasure (all with my bestie by my side). A lot of it was close together so it felt like week to week I was unpacking and repacking my suitcase. As I prepared for the first trip, I made a list of outfits I want - ed to bring and when I was happy with the selection started folding and fitting it all in. After I put all my clothes in, I noticed they were all in one tone. Whites, creams, and vary - ing shades of brown (mostly that nat - ural linen color…ie more white and cream). Looking at the monotone clothing inside my tan suitcase (…), I unpacked everything and repacked adding more color. I still kept it in my earth-tone style but added in some vibrancy with green, yellow, orange, blue, and pink. I smiled and that is when I received the best compliment I have ever received to date! My roommate/bestie said that she felt as though I had honed in on my style this past year. Biggest. Compliment. EVER. Why? Because how we dress, our style, and the colors we choose are a reflection of our personality. We can’t help it! Think of why you chose the last clothing item you pur - chased. It’s inexplicable why, it’s just because “I liked it”. Color is a large part of this, which is why I am excited about my growing desire for color. As most of us did the past couple of years, following Kim K, we started gravitating toward neutrals. I included, as exhibited by my packing experience. I have been a long lover of off-white, creams, beige, and pairing neutrals. There is something pleasing about neu - trals on neutrals and if you open my closet (especially my winter sweat - ers), you will see a large section of creams and browns. And don’t get me wrong, I think Kim is right about neutrals being calming. I reflected on this change with a close friend and

13 @maya.kwok think that when we are operating in high-stress mode or have a lot on our plate, we reach for what is easiest/quickest. The easiest and quickest meal to make, the easiest clothes to wear. We want to cut down on our decision-making to save room for only high-level choices. Neutrals were a form of that, for me. While a minor sign, a sign nonetheless that I was putting another aspect of self-care (that I typically enjoy) to the side to focus on what was more important to me at the time (school/work). And while there will always be moments where this is true in life, it is important to notice the slightest of signs that you are not putting yourself first anymore. Taking the easier way in regards to self-care. But we have to admit, staying neutral takes out the fun. Where is life? Where is the excitement? The personality? (This is not to say that if you prefer all neutrals you have no personality, again, I own a looooot of neutrals. I am just saying I feel I’ve been neutral for too long and want a life in color!). I watched a great TedTalk by Ingrid Fatell Lee, “Where Joy Hides and How to Find It” where she explained that color influences our emotions and brighter colors naturally bring us joy. Watching Ingrid speak in a bright pink dress inspired me to re-introduce color into a large part of my life - my wardrobe (if any of you know me from grade school…yea, clothes are a VERY large part of my life). Ingrid is undoubtedly right. The pop of color makes me feel happy (Above) Green Sweater: Zara (Above) Blue Sweater: American Eagle (Right) Pink Sweater & Green Bag: Zara (Far Right) Olive Pants: Anthropologie

@maya.kwok 14 like I stand out a little bit. Most importantly, color makes me feel more me! This winter I have gravitated toward green, blue, and pink. Usually, I don’t wear a lot of pink but I’m loving that bright kind of fuschia pink (again Kim K…what can I say, she’s an icon!). These colors show up mostly in my sweaters and even my pants (biggg supporter of fun pants) and I am even extending this taste for life in color to bags. Something about a colorful bag on another colorful item just makes me smile. Again, not all my colors are super bright or funky, it is really just a touch (for now). And yes, they are mostly paired with neutrals, but this is my style! Earthy tones and brighter colors when I feel like it. Whatever catches my eye, I choose it for a reason...I just like it! How has your fashion sense changed over the years? Do you find certain colors impact your emotion? What colors do you gravitate towards? What does your relationship with your style say about you? What do you want it to say about you?

mov Taking it Slow I used to be a wedding coordinator during one of the busiest seasons for weddings (ask anyone in the industry!), which was high stress (to say the least), and had my energy in constant demand. I turned to my routine activities to keep me calm; early mornings to feel like I had “me time”, runs, and walks to clear my head whenever I could (ie squeezing them in). Trying to fit in all my activities with an already packed schedule, though, ended up being worse for me. Rather than clearing my mind, the fast pace of running and writing tight schedules (half hour by half hour) to fit everything in matched the fast pace of work. I realized a smidge too late that it actually compounded my anxiety. Essentially, it took me from mentally running on overload to physically running on overload as well. I didn’t know how to stop...until I was forced to. My body was trying to tell me to slow down, but I did not listen to the signs. I ended up with a hamstring injury (nothing serious, but enough to finally slow me down) that opened my eyes to the importance of rest. Not only did my body need rest, but my mind did too. I knew I wanted to change so I decided to leave my position and focus on resting (a privelage, I know! I am fortunate that I am in a position to do so - but note I am still working...just less stress work!). It was tough. I had no idea what to do if not doing something, working towards something, or moving. It made me question my relationship with achievement, movement, and the idea of “routine”. Why do I feel like I have to be constantly doing something? Why am I afraid of downtime or doing nothing? Is my “routine” helping me or hindering me? Routine was a big realization, that it may be hindering me. I made the mistake of thinking adding something to my “routine” meant I MUST do 15 @maya.kwok

vement it every day to be happy, productive, etc. etc. And that is simply not true. There is not one thing you can do every day that will ensure a “successful” day or a good day. Every day is different, we cannot predict it, and we have no control over it. And that is what I was trying to do. Have control. By telling ourselves there are these static things that we have control over to ensure consistent results, we are (again) limiting ourselves. Operating under the assumption we can control life and its outcomes will eventually tire us out as it is simply unrealistic. Now, I’m not saying you can’t plan ahead and do your best to better yourself or take steps to reach a certain outcome. I fully support having a plan. I am just saying that we need to remember that the plan will only take us so far. Some things have to be left up to chance, have to be. At a certain point, we no longer have control and it is up to fate/the universe/God/whatever you believe in to decide the rest. This is a good thing! This means we can take it easy knowing we’ve done the most we can with every decision, and action we make. And taking a step back is letting life do more of the work. It will ebb and flow; you are impacting life and life is impacting you. We just need to accept that. Slowing down has given me more time to think, which is one of the best outcomes as I am becoming more in touch with myself and what I want to do. Decisions become less paralyzing (not @maya.kwok 16 A photo from a long walk downtown. Exploring lead to this cute find! A painting at the entrance of an enclosed green space.

& activ completely, I still fall back on my Yes/No wheel…) because I am more grounded in how I feel. I decided I want to pursue a more design-driven career and made some moves to gain the skills and experience to do so. When I told one of my besties about the program I am pursuing, she was excited for me and said something I will never forget: “I am excited for you to do school and be average, you know? Like, chill and do it because you want to” (something along those lines). I was smiling ear to ear when she said that because she put it into words before I came to that conclusion myself (which made me only more excited for all that is to come). Another way to go into this next chapter intentionally, yet leave space for life to do the rest of the work. I will put in the best effort I can when it feels right and just let that be. Slowing down is a lesson that takes practice. I am still learning it as I have my weeks where I want so desperately to return to old ways, do, and suffer the consequences. I am learning how to settle myself down, and find calm in those moments when I feel anxiety building, taunting me to move faster. I want to relish my current mindset and find a way to institute it when I inev - itably find myself in another high-stress situation or patch of life. I will prob - ably still make my air-tight schedules, but hopefully, I will only use them as a release and not feel the need to stick to them. I will have to learn this lesson again and again, but hopefully each time finding something new that helps me the next time. Things that I am intaking now to slow down are movements like long leisurely walks and chill bike rides that allow me the space to take my time and think slower. I also used to not be one who could meditate because I had too much on my mind (meaning it probably was something I should have tried to help just that), but I have a few times when I feel waves of pressure trying to creep back in. Where in your life can you slow down? Where can you let go of some control? How comfortable or uncomfortable are you with loosening up control? 17 @maya.kwok

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arot ading Card PAST - The Sun (my favorite!) Meaning = “positivity, fun, warmth, success, vitality.” “Through the challenges along your path, you discovered who you are and why you’re here. The Sun connects you to your power base - not fear-driven, egotistical power, but the abundant, inner energy radiating through you right now.” Interpretation = Since I’ve always identified with this card, I feel as though it was telling me that in the past I had more light and energy to put into things around me, and go after goals…true. Maybe it is hinting at the idea that this can’t be exerted all the time though, as it will lead to burnout (burn…sun…ok overanalyzing but it was right there). PRESENT - Six of Pentacles (reversed) Meaning = “self-care, unpaid debts, one-sided charity.” “The amounts flowing in and out are in balance, and you are thankful for what you have and happy to share with others in need.” Interpretation = UMMM taking care of myself is the “in” that will help me gain energy back to put “out”, which is being more present with those around me. FUTURE - The Tower (iykyk) Meaning = “sudden change, upheaval, chaos, revelation, awakening.” “After a Tower experience, you will grow stronger, wiser, and more re - silient as you develop a new perspective on life you did not even know existed. The Tower card is your opportunity to break free from the old ways of thinking that have been holding you back.” Interpretation = UMMMMMM! Self-explanatory, no? Check out Biddy Tarot for Tart Card Meanings 20

ar d You Are the Space You Create I can’t promise that I will ever stop talking about my room or stop deco - rating it (which gives me more to talk about…). I can’t help it, I’m proud of it! It’s absolutely my favorite space ever and it makes me feel good. That is what happens when your space is truly YOUR space. Little things I did to make my space feel completely me were to plan out the colors, leave room to collect things, and lighting. Aso, it’s important to huge keep your mindset open in that it will be ever - changing (it’s a process!). Before decorating, before making any concrete purchases, I planned everything out visually. I made slides and laid out my room digitally to create the space before even step - ping foot in it (literally, I never saw my apartment before moving in LOL big trust in my roomies…rightfully so!). Planning it out was comforting for me because I could make a bunch of changes until I was pleased with - out making any financial sacrifices. I knew I wanted my “vibe” to be vin - tage mixed with mid-century-mod and a dash of eclectic (ie bolder colors and travel trinkets). The right balance of tones and textures was key to making my style work, which is why having a digital plan was so helpful. I would design each corner or vignette, so I could make sure that the colors I wanted to come through were well-balanced. I knew I want - ed my neutrals, but also my earthy tones and metals to make the room read vintage/mid-century-mod/ eclectic (we will come up with a name for this later). With each area, I made sure there was some solid neu - tral with elements around it that had 21 @maya.kwok

rt & design more color so that it wasn’t sensory overload and if I ever wanted to add somethingn in, it would still work. Once I saw the space, of course, cer - tain things changed; the position of my dresser, the wall sticker, etc. Then as I started living here, I accumulat - ed little things to make it more me. I have little things on my dresser top and bookshelf like photos, framed pictures, and prints that I love, things I’ve made, been gifted, or just found and couldn’t live without (a gnome with hanging legs…yeah catch me as a hoarder in 2050). I’ve tried to be minimal in my life, but it’s just not me. I like an organized mess. I am the person with two craft bags, with an L-wrench if you need one, and pretty much anything at the ready if you need it (it can almost always be found in my closet or among my pos - sessions). I like being that person, I’ve accepted that I am that person. As previously mentioned, my twin - kle lights are VERY important to me. They make a space cozy and warm which, to me, is necessary for a room where you will spend most of your time. It makes everything feel like a movie, you can never go wrong with the amber lighting! Oh, and candles! Not only does candlelight add to the coziness, but scents also help me complete my desired ambiance. I have a specific scent for mornings versus evenings; morning is more citrus and evening is lavender, some - times vanilla or pumpkin (fall/winter). Another area where you can custom - ize the experience of your space and make it more you. @maya.kwok 22 The view I wake up to every morning. Maybe my favorite section because of the pretty mix of colors!

With the new additions I find along the way, I find I am constantly chang - ing the makeup of my walls, the tops of my dresser/bookshelf, you name it. Nothing is static and I have come to love that! My room changes as much as I do, which makes it even more of a reflection of me! If I am ever purchasing something big that will impact the landscape of some - thing, I go back to the digital drawing board and assure myself before pur - chasing that this is what I want here or if it will fit in aesthetically (like right now I am shopping for a vintage clock and a tall vase…have been for the past three months). It’s a process, it’s completely mine, and it makes me happy! I hope you find ways to incor - porate pieces of you into your space to feel the most at home; warm ‘n fuzzy, comfy ‘n cozy! 23 From planning to execution. Top photo is the digital plan I created and these individuals shots are of some of my favorite sections (all of it lol). Still a work in progress! My newest addition is pictured on the left; a candle lamp!

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edia & The Midnight Library by Matt Haig was gifted to me by a dear friend of mine based on the genres I gravitate towards. Those genres include, psychology, sef-help (we guessed this one), mystery, relationships (platoninc and ro - mantic - just human connection), and (of course) New York City. Midnight Library falls more in the psychology/self-help genre but is a fictionnal tale that follows one character’s life, Nora, and the choices she’s made. From the beginning it is known that Nora is displeased with her life and is de - pressed. So severely depressed that she contemplates taking her life. As Nora contemplates life and death, she experiences the Midnight Library, where she is confronted with her life’s regrets; big and small decisions she‘s made that she believes resulted in her feeling this way. Her journey revolves around what it would be like if we had the ability to do anything over, see the outcome of any decision made differently. Derail: The concept of midnight Library reminded me of my absolute, all time, favorite film: About Time (if you have not seen it, please watch it on Netflix now and smile endlessly!) where the main character, Tim, can trav - el back in time and uses this to reason out the secret to a happy life. The secret to life in that film is one of my all time favorite quotes. You’re wel - come. When I get into a book, I get into a book. Turns out I can read pretty fast, so I tore through this one in three days, captivated by the different stories of the main character’s potential lives (the short stories within a larger sto - ry lended to its “page turner” quality). I usually say that I have no regrets, nothing I would do differently because all my choices have made me the version of me I am right now. However, this novel made me think about even small decisions, those “what if” thoughts that make us wonder how The Midnight Library @maya.kwok 26

our lives could be marginally different if we chose otherwise. My roommates will be the first to tell you that certain decisions paralyze me; mostly choosing between options of what to do (ranging from as simple as going for a bike ride versus going for a run to complex things like whether or not to leave a job). My internal debates are like the kind of regrets Nora re - flects on in her life (in the Midnight Library she must read through her own “Book of Regrets”). Inspired by the story, I decided to write down my “what if” moments, my own “Book of Regrets” persay: What would have happened if I had chosen a different concentration within my major? What if I actually went through with studying abroad for a full semester? What if I searched for another job before graduating? What if I never took up running? What if I said yes? What if I said no? Would any of those decisions actually change who I am today? Or would I eventually end up in the same place, digging deep into who I am and what I want? Maybe different obstacles would have shown themselves along the way but still lead to where I am now. I would like to believe that either way I would end up in this same state. That “figuring it out” state. I highly recommend this read for those in a point of transition in their life. Whether that’s post-grad or any other reflection point you are facing. It has a great message to find ways, find the strength, to make your current state work for you. You can go anywhere, do anything, start anytime. It’s a pro - cess! PS. One thing I did note while reading is there is a sort of disconnect to - wards Nora as a character. I did not find myself too attached to her. I don’t know if it is becuase I couldn’t particularyl relate to her or it was just be - cause a man was writing a female character’s point of view? If you read it and feel separated from Nora, or if you just read it, let me know your thoughts! Check Out The Midnight Library on Good Reads 27 @maya.kwok

@maya.kwok 28 Rainy days and cozy cafes make for the best reading ambiance. I often listen to cafe sounds on Spotify to get that vibe at home (to avoid spend - ing $5.00 on tea I can make myself) while reading!

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